Sunday, March 28, 2010

is that a train ahead?

ever walk through the tunnel and see the light at the end? ever see the light and pray to god its the train?
today is one of those days....except there is no light.
i try to fake being happy but the facade is cracking. bad enough people can see the gaping fissures...

does a strong man breakdown and lose it? who does the goto guy go to?
funny on a sunday i contemplate this...eventually the "faith" speech comes up. i have none anymore.
if anything call me Job. all i need is leprosy or some strange skin disease. dammit i think my pinky toe fell off...

feel like the universe is conspiring against me. everytime i have tried for something to make my life better it has turned into a horror movie. karma is truly a bitch when it wants to be. i wonder how evil i was in past lifes? if i beleived in that.

some people will come back with "but look around you, it could be worse"  yup...i think i hear the train coming.

Saturday, March 27, 2010

i am back...

been in hiding. but i am out of the cave.
training kicking off well but no competitions in sight. a few PR's recently....805 rack pull, 585x2 squats, 300lb stone to 50".
i am working a strange schedule 5 on 5 off 2 on 2 off...makes for lot of rest and some intense training.
gives me the chance to train events every other week which is a plus. my off days i am rotating cardio:
low intensity bike or hiit kettlebell swings.

working on a new blog and artwork for some shirts...check it out.
http://dudebrosguide.blogspot.com/