sink or swim

yeah that is how i feel....time to dog paddle. amazing though that just a kind word and a sympathetic ear make the best floaties. right now that's all i can ask for and maybe a job lead or 2.

oddly i am feeling artistic. pulled out the paints, a canvas and brushes....helps to pass the time and give me something tangible to do. emailing resumes and waiting on phone calls just isn't demanding enough. also this cold snap has been keeping me locked up inside. warm enough today i just might go out for a walk. strange that i never thought i could get cabin fever in florida...

training is in the crapper...i will have to make my way there sometime this week or weekend. just not feeling the love for iron right now.

boredom, training, plans, and a rant

yup i was bored....after all i forgot what a real day off was like. new schedule kicked in and the days off commenced with me sleeping in late, watching too much tv and playing too much final fantasy. finally got so stir crazy i made my way to the gym. did some light work that left me sore and tight a day later. overhead squats...nuff said!

november 7th is my next competition http://02d934a.netsolstores.com/pdf/Finalentryform.doc
my work schedule makes training easy and gives me enough rest. this should be fun and a great opputunity to qualify extremely early for 2010 nationals. and that is my goal!! the weights are perfect and doable for me. my weight will be easy to manage...only 5-6 lbs to drop. a good time with friends coming in and my training partner comepting too!

after that...who knows?

now the rant....
my job is simple. but someone can fuck it up! or at least cause distress among the rest of the crew. we input vital and timely information for our customers. if not done then we lose and so does our customers. amazingly that is just what the person i follow did not do. fucking retarded monkeys could do this job! i come in on a saturday morning to a shitstorm of fucked up info.
to top it off this person left as soon as i walked in...10 minutes early and i ended playing catchup for an hour.
FUCKING LAZY ASSBAG!!!
yes this person wins the "c-word" award

late nite ramblings

i just need to kill the time while i wait for my day to end. rather slow tonight....

i can hear rumblings outside, still raining. just hoping there are no tornadoes

coming my way. with my drive home there is no place to go if i run into one.

i have to say being back on this ketogenic diet i have rediscovered the lack of

filters...something about low carbs makes me lose inhibitions. could be good if

i got out and was able to flirt...i really feel flirty...haha...bad coming from a guy?

between my job and training i dont get to be "out" there. and really...how many

women want to be bothered in the gym or supermarket? dammit they are all married anyway.

karma is a strange and wonderful thing....must be why i am having all this crazy shit go on this week.

was watching buena vista social club. love that music and the movie. cuba is a beautiful country. and the people have such spirit. love seeing the singers walking

around and just singing...the musicians are wonderful too. the sound just makes you

want to dance, drink rum, and smoke a cigar. the best part is compay segundo, a

90 year old man, talking about trying to have a 6th child...

ok i am done rambling....