life's ups and downs

am i afraid? yes...unemployment is not a good thing. not knowing if you will get anything, competing against the 11% unemployed people in this county...wondering just how long i can survive, what would it be like to live on the streets...i now spend all day sending out resumes, hoping to hear something back. i check to see if i will get compensation...or will i be denied? i pray a lot too...

the upside before that was i had the possibility of getting on fulltime at the company i was working at. also i finally met someone that gets me. funny how these things work...i sometimes think i am living the life of Job. have everything only to watch it all get taken away, fall apart, and disappear. it is frustrating and somewhat depressing but good friends know how to walk me off the ledge. i have to learn how to take this and make it work for me.

training and competing will be a little off. have to focus on other priorities right now. that is what really hurts though...one thing i love to do will be set aside.

well back to job hunting....